Wednesday, November 26, 2008

A FALLEN ANGEL


A gloomy,dark,cold night...
the fallen angel walks by.
The glances are piercing her,
as if ripping of her clothing,
and making her feel nude.
She shivers in cold,
She trembles in hunger,
She longs for a shelter.
But no one comes to help her,
she is a fallen angel!and
her body is for sale....
Those wolves pounce on her,
they quench their lust,
bite her ,scratch her....
leave her moaning in pain,
blood-covered and breathless!
And then the next day...
she covers her wounds,
behind the layers of pancake
and waits for another day....
She craves for a little love,
she receives hatred!
she craves for a little support,
and she receives ignorance!
They say she is spoiled...
they ignore her existence.
But her so called impurity,
outshines the moon's purity!
She shines in glory....
camouflaging all pains,that
she receives every night!
She brings food to her family,
she feeds her hungry child.
She keeps performing duties...
so silently and truthfully.
But no one owes duty to her,
for she is a spoiled girl!
She is empty,she is hollow,
and clueless about tomorrow.
Seasons change,colours fade,
and she walks by,in
a gloomy,dark,cold night.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

LIFE GOES ON...


Life is like a riddle,
so much difficult to solve!
It leaves us clueless,
we wonder what is next.
Life flows on its own way
and immerses into death.
On its way it gifts us,
moments of love and hatred.
Untold pains linger in hearts,
unfulfilled desires hurt us...
But life goes on,leaving
those moments behind us.
Familiar faces become strangers,
some stranger becomes so familiar!
All these are ironies of life....
either accept it or suffer!!
An empty smile is not enough,
to hide the grief,perishing us!
But still we go on acting like this,
without realising it looks foolish!
People come and people go....
leaving footprints on our hearts,
Disaster and pains are part of life,
they teach us how to survive.
Glorious moments come flashing by,
rendering us heavenly delight!
Friends come and move away,
and life goes on its way....



Friday, November 21, 2008

I WALK ALONE


I am walking alone,
through the alleys of life.
No one ever notices me,
No one ever listens to me,
and no one ever loves me!
I'm most unwanted person alive.
Broken are my dreams,
burnt are my emotions...
memories are haunting me
I have nowhere to run!
Living with a lamenting heart
which is still bleeding...
have immersed myself into pain,
for pains are my best friends!
people keep using me,
people keep betraying me,and
people keep throwing me away.
Known faces become unknown...
they behave like strangers.
But no one ever knows anything,
those are buried inside my soul!
It is burning inside my ribs,
it burns on and on......
but my pains are never gone!
My heart is burning on pyre,
of hatred and unfulfilled desires.
Now it has turned into ashes,
floating aimlessly into breeze.
Wish,I could rise like a phoenix,
from the ashes of sorrow and despair.
Wish I could walk in the rain,
and hide my dropping tears!
Wish I could get a person....
who will heal my wounds.
And till I get someone,
I keep on walking alone...
Through the alleys of life....

Monday, November 10, 2008

SOME REASONS...


Find some reason to smile,
for it is anodyne to a human mind.
Find some reason to cry,
for it lessens the burden of dreariness.
Find some reason to live,
for death is inevitable to us.
Find some reason to die,
for death takes away all anguish.
Find some reason to love,
for it is the key to paradise.
Find some reason to sing,
for it expresses the music of soul.
Find some reason to care,
for it shortens the distance of minds.
Find some reason to trust,
for it implies assurance of care.
Find some reason to dream,
for it nourishes a lamenting heart.
Find some reason to be passionate,
for it is the fiercest fire.
Find some reason to forgive,
for it renders a heavenly delight.
Find some reason to tolerate,
for it strengthens togetherness.
Find some reason to celebrate,
for we are children,of the Almighty God!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

SILENT PAIN.......


silent are my pains
silent are my tears
they fall down silently,
without making me realise!

it hurts deep inside
leaves scars on my heart
which are hardest to heal...
for no one can feel!

my future is uncertain
and my past is gloomy ...
nowhere to escape now
however intolerable it may be.....

try hard to conceal my pain,
under the exterior of laughter.
for no one can heal them..
with some consoling words!

I hope it is gone tomorrow,
I try to forget everything...
and sink into the world of dream.
but alas!they are still there.

life waits for no one,
it glides on and on....
but my pains are still there
embracing me tight with tears!

my heart is still bleeding,
blood is gushing out of it,
but it leaves no marks,
for they are inside me.


living in a world,so cold!and
frozen with bereavement.
i am still alive and will be...
the scars, staying forever with me!

Saturday, November 8, 2008

SERENITY


You come to meet me,
every night in my dreams.
You hold me close to your heart
take me to destinations unseen,
walk by my side at paths unknown.
I cling to the warmth of your hand...
I feel all my worries are gone!
With your intense glare,you
make me feel how much you care!
My heart beats for you my love...
No one can make us apart.
You are the pure dew of the dawn,
so much soothing and calm!
Like rain drops on flower...
I shiver and tremble when you touch!
Love is this special world,
that is shared jointly by us.
Your love has melted into me,
bringing Heaven's purity in me.........

Thursday, November 6, 2008

TO SOMEONE......


When I look into your eyes,
I can see vastness of the ocean.
Offering an implied promise...
of heavenly love and sacrifice!

When I listen to your voice,
Feels like butterfly gliding along swiftly.
It is not in my ears you whispered...
but into my heart, it still lingers!

When I feel your warm embrace,
all the coldness vanishes into oblivion.
I just feel like a rose ,my love...
when I am back in your arms!

When you kiss my lips my love,
it is my soul that you kiss.
Wanna feel your heart against mine...
So take a deep breath,close your eyes!



SOLITARY LASS......


♥ ♥ ♥... solitude is my best friend...sometimes i feel like escaping from everything,from everyone....i wish i could fly over the horizons like a free bird ..to unknown destination...where there is no one,except an isolated me and my solitariness....

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

ALWAYS BE PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE!



Our confidence level is so fragile! every time an unfavourable or unwanted remark or may be a little bit criticism.... thats all what is enough to create a kind of complex in one's mind.Criticism really hurts,but still I think there is some necessity of criticism also,for it points out what is lacking in you.And if you can not tolerate criticism that means you are lacking in self-esteem!

Every person is different from one another.Their nature,characteristics,qualities...all differ.At some point there may be some similarities but mostly they are contrasting.Also the process of thinking may not be the same,thats why there is no definition of so called "right" and "wrong".

Each and every living creature is the creation of Almighty God.And God has given each of us some special power,talent and quality.We have to identify those qualities and talents which we have within us and let them shine through diligence,passion,dedication,will-power and perseverance.Never consider yourself inferior to anybody in this world.Because you have those qualities in which the other is lacking!Stop worrying about your deficiencies and and be proud of who you are and what you have.Be thankful to God who has rendered those to you.Let your qualities protect you like the Armour of a Knight!There is hidden fire in you,unleash it....

Probably what you are looking for is inside of you!Be content and happy...ENJOY AND LIVE LIFE GRACEFULLY!

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

AMOUR



"AMOUR"(love)-the most enchanting word in this world,the intensity of this word touches our very soul,the sweetness of this word liberates our mind from bondage of hatred .The language of love has no barrier...it is as true as our own existence.Only love has the power of healing our wounds,it penetrates our soul and leaves an everlasting smile on our face.One word frees us from all the pains and sufferings of our life ...and it is "LOVE"! It is the key which opens all the doors of happiness.True love purifies our mind.Being loved by someone is like receiving a glimpse of heaven...yeah,love is heavenly! It pacifies the soul of the person receiving it and satisfies the soul of the person giving it! True love never goes in vain.In this world each and every person is hungry of love.Can u ignore a comforting hug when you are feeling low?Can u refuse a loving kiss when you are depressed?...I cant!

Love is an assurance implying an everlasting promise "I am with you,always,forever and ever.So what if you have done any wrong!never be ashamed,never be afraid, come to me...I will heal you!".But it is very true --if we want to love we must learn to forgive.Revenge implies revenge,hatred implies hatred,and continuation of this can extinct human race!...“We cannot all do great things, but we can do small things with great love."


"
There is hunger for ordinary bread, and there is hunger for love, for kindness, for thoughtfulness, and this is the great poverty that makes people suffer so much."....Mother Teresa


Monday, November 3, 2008

PRICELESS MOMENTS...


life is like a flowing river, or u can say a journey from the darkness of womb to the darkness of death! the paths, the alleys are completely unknown and unsure. No one can say "yeah, i know what will happen tomorrow!"...in fact u cant say what will happen to u in next few minutes! That is the speciality ,the uniqueness of life. You have to prepare ur mind for every upcoming situation .And if u cannot then u are lost...in the vast darkness. I, personally think infancy is the best phrase of a person's life...u dont need to worry about anything, u r free ,u r loved ,u r cared like a little princess! the most amusing part of infancy is that u r not worrying about anything but its ur parents who worry about u a lot!

Today when i was travelling by Metro Rail, a bunch of little school girls came running like a cascade of flowing waterfall,into the train,when it stopped for a while in a station.The were full of innocence,vivacity and vitality ! constantly talking, rather chirping like little birds ,the train was soon filled with laughter and joy...not the usual kind of joy, it was something divine something very innocent! when i looked at them i became lost in my childhood days...i was wondering whether i was as vivacious as they are ! probably not.I was shy,demure and introvert or rather unfriendly and timid! if anyone asked my name i would hide myself behind my mother,it was safest place on earth for me.I dont know why there was not such deep connection with my father! probably the distance of places created distance between us!I didnt like to play with other girls of my age,rather i would sit and watch them playing.My favourite activity was gazing stars in the sky! and thinking whether a ladder would be enough to reach them! stupid me! I was always lost in thoughts...which appeared to others meaningless imagination of a stupid child!I cannot tolerate ignorance and humiliation...since i became mature enough to understand what is humiliation or ignorance! So i decided my thoughts,my imaginations are only mine...the are my treasures ...i will tell no one!....not even my mother....

Probably, since then i became distant from everyone .Actually even today i m lonely...more lonely than ever...but earlier i used to hate this,now i understand its value.

There are some moments in my life which i regard as priceless,which taught me the reason to celebrate life, to stop worrying about what i dont have and to thank God for everything which he has given me!if there is any true friend in my life he is the Almighty god!. I can feel his presence I can share my every little worries with him....i am sure he will show me light,he will guide me through uneven ,uncertain alleys of life.

Now I am going to tell the incident which flashes upon my inward eye ,everytime I think about my life's vital phrases .I was in 8th standard.Like everyday i was in school, attending classes.Suddenly someone came in the class and said headmistress wants to meet me! I was shocked ,petrified and a little bit anxious.When i met her she said that my mother will not come to school to receive me...i have to go by school bus alone! i was utterly surprised!
when i reached my stoppage my relative received me and informed me about my mother's accident,but she never revealed how severe it was.At that time I felt nothing....I was completely blank,had no idea what I should do.My mother got admitted in hospital.She was in hospital for 4months.And this was the crucial time in my life.I never knew I will face this kind of situation,ever in my life.My mother used to do everything... cleansing my clothes,cooking foods,going to shops,receiving me from bus stand!...every possible thing a mother is supposed to do.without her I felt completely out of world! I had never been so helpless in my life,but gradually i took most of the responsibilities ,both of myself and my brother and probably to some extent of my father.
One day my father brought the clothes my mother was wearing at the time of accident.Amongst them there was a red shawl,her favourite one.I thought I must wash them.I never knew such an incident is waiting for me!I took the shawl and started pouring water on it..after a few seconds some red coloured fluid came out from that shawl! I poured more water and gradually the whole area was filled with blood! yes it was blood! overwhelming red blood,gushing out from that shawl.....I was petrified,terrified and i stood there in awe....as if I forgot the way to escape!
I had never seen so much blood in my whole life,everywhere there was blood.It was like a pool of blood surrounding me!I stood still,i could not move....the whole incident was unnerving.It created phobia in me.Even now whenever i see blood I get afraid,this incident flashes in my mind.Whenever there are blasts or any kind of blood-shedding incident anywhere I just turn off the channel where those wounded,mutilated and blood-covered corpses are being showed , in fact i dont read the newspaper next day! For I am sure they will print those scary pictures on the front page!I have phobia of blood.In fact, i have got phobia of the colour "red".